HEY!

I finally went ahead and made a new LiveJournal. If you haven't been keeping up, I'm gonna update over there in a bit and briefly go over why. It'll be tough, this LJ had good stuff in the beginning... But change is good, so please add 0nesweetdream to your list. Hm, I haven't added anyone over there yet 'cause, y'know, maybe it'll also be a way to clean my list. I mean, some of you may not decide to add that username- and that's fine, there are several cases where, unfortunately, some of you and I haven't "clicked" or whatever. I digress; ugh the only difficult thing was the community moderation, blah.

Anyways, anyways- go! 0nesweetdream

Lost was sad, the Jack and Sarah stuff. Great, great episode, though. It reminded me how sad I felt. Ugh, this is gonna be rambly...

Hm, school. Art was cool, Health's gonna be cool 'cause we can't get our new books for a while so the rest of the week we're doing nothing, Biology was a drag and I'll explain part of the reason why it's always a drag later, English was cool... I finished my Algebra homework in class again, lunch was alright, History was fun. Becker told me and Amy that we should sit in the front of her class 'cause we always get her jokes right away and snicker. :) Silly uptight scholarly students... Aaand in Interp I can't decide what I'm gonna do concerning a new poetry piece and the fact that there are only three more tournaments to go to and it'll be difficult finding poetry next year 'cause it's always difficult, rawr.

Several things have made me very disappointed today. I'll start from the end of my day.

There's this kid, a friend of David's [the fish] and his name is Kai [he's got Asian in him XD] and he's a sweet kid I guess and ... David told me he's got this crush on me. He's got a nice body, I'll tell you that because I am a hugging whore. But he's... I won't discriminate against age, that's low, but... I dunno. I don't know him well. But eventually we'll exchange screennames or something, and then we'll talk for a bit and know each other a little, then he'll tell me, then I'll say I already knew, then I'll let him down. And I'll regret it for some reason or other later on when we drift apart again. Happens every time. Who am I kidding, of course it doesn't THAT happen often. Don't get that impression, hehe.

I dunno if I'm single or not, to add to that. I mean... I don't want anybody right now. Alright maybe I do, seeing as how every single couple stood out today at school. The more I think about it, the more I'm convinced that Jason isn't real and that Theresa is some sad freak. I just need some closure before I try and move on... and I really want to. This is no way to live. I guess I'm looking forward to being single, but not that hopeless fight to find The Right Person. I'll be single for a long while after this is settled...

Um... At lunch, I found out why David is so "bipolar." Basically his dad is a bitch to him. I was nagging and teasing him about being all emo 'cause he was quiet and I just go, "why are you so bipolar?!" Idiot. He snaps at me, but apologises, and later tells me that his dad pulled a knife on him. I already suspected, uggh... Poor kid... He's an annoying shit to most people but y'know, I still enjoy myself around him while others don't. He's just an in-your-face kid, doesn't care. Just how he is, I accept it.

Also at lunch, I was informed that this gay kid at the tournament this weekend was "hitting on" Chad. I asked about it, it was twisted. Like, Joe and Tremain went up to this kid and were like, "oh my gosh, Chad likes you!" or something, and the kid had his hopes up... and then Kelly and Paige went up to him and Kelly was like, "Oh my goodness, he's my boyfriend, he's totally not gay!" and the kid apparently got flustered and was all, "Oh... I didn't think he was gay..." That is disgusting. I cannot believe how cruel kids are without realising it. I hate it SO much. It pains me deeply.

If you don't read anything else in this entry, read this. Y'know, I guess I'm biased 'cause pft, I'm a pervert, I love gay action- but it's about tolerance, shitheads. In Biology, every other fucking word from every other kids mouth is "faggot" or "that's/you're gay/queer." I'm fucking telling you, not only is it extremely [I used to think a little bit] discriminative and ignorant, but it makes everyone sound uneducated! You know who says "gay" every other second? Fourth graders. Grow the fuck up everyone. I swear to "god," it kills me every single time I hear it. I don't wanna hear it at all from anyone around me. If you're talking to me, I don't wanna hear it. Who is anyone to use something as sexuality against someone else? It's like discriminating against people for their eye color. It disappoints me, this generation. Most people use the word without meaning it against gay people, "gay as in 'retarded'" it is still awful. I don't feel strong about anything at all- I hate politics- except tolerance. I hate hate hate hearing that shit. Bottom line- don't say it around me. I am so serious.

Why does everyone want to destroy everyone else?

I sound like a fuckin' hippie.

On a lighter and unrelated note: if my mother thinks I'm a slut, it's her fault. :P She bought me this stuff from Express- this low-cut spaghetti strap thing and this hot necklace, man... It's fun. :)

Gah, I know I didn't update yesterday- I was conscious of that, hehe. Not much happened, and what did happen [actually, happened Saturday night] will be explained later...

In art class we're starting a project that should be fun and awesome, we've got our teacher back so things are back to normal and smooth. Basically we're gonna create this abstract... thing using initials. We didn't have to use those in our own names, so the first awesome name that came to me was "Robert Allen Zimmerman" (aka, Dylan) but... I came up with cool design for my own initials. I digress... [I do that a lot lately] Ooh, no more PE- went to Health for the first time. Blow off class, blow off teacher- he should be fun, he's cool enough. Watches the Price is Right when there's nothing else to do in class, ehehe! That show... I didn't realise how old the contestents were, it cracks me up. Biology was alright... In English, Edens kept my semester exam essay 'cause I made a 100 and she's gonna share it with other classes. XD I don't think I've ever done better in English class before this year... :D Algebra was a drag, lunch was fun enough. I snapped at Chad for annoying Emilee and 'cause he was a jerk to me Saturday night. Miles told me that apparently, Stephen was really shocked and maybe saddened/disappointed to find out what I did Saturday *cough* and wanted to confront me 'cause he cares or something... Now I dunno how many of you remember, but Stephen's the ex-close friend with the sense of humor that got really old and annoying so I basically stopped talking to him last year. These days it's better, we joke around a lot but I had no idea he'd be so concerned. He didn't say anything about it to me, though. World History was fun enough, um... and in Interp, I get to perform my prose for the class on Monday 'cause I'm not going to Churchill, shouldn't be that bad. And I think I have my collection of poems for my new piece to take to Warren next weekend. :)

Now... I've been avoiding bringing this up because... things are fuzzy and I'm unsure, but it's about Theresa, Greg, and Jason. Of course. ( It's kind of a big deal. )

Ugggh, right now I'm trying to download the newest version of AIM, that Triton thing and I've tried downloading the sonofabitch so many times. It keeps saying that the files are corrupted or don't exist or something- I'm running it right from the site! Rawr.

Know what else is pissing me off? The fact that my neighborhood's now technically part of San Antonio. Which means we pay city taxes... and y'know, sure Helotes has this huge-ass hick reputation- but at least it isn't ghetto, ugh. Sigh. Yeah I've been meaning to mention that for a while, hehe.

I think I'm done here... gonna go... make some icons or something.

Ahh, finally, finals are over! For the history final, Becker picked 14 of the 28 questions on the review to ask, everyone had different questions. The ones I got weren't bad, but I left one blank. Eek. But she said she wasn't gonna be that hard on us, so yes. And then after that, since it was my lunch period and I didn't have a ride home, I brought Jenga for me, Faith, Chad and Miles and... Richie and David and Amy Zhang to play. We only played like, two really short games and then we were just fooling around with them for an hour and a half. We were so loud, they were banging 'em together and stuff, hehe. It was lovely. And then I saw Louis, he was looking for his girlfriend and then... Oh yes, before lunch- in World History when most of the class was done, I'm lookin' around and then I catch David's glance and he points out my hair and he mouthed, "did you cut it?" I was like, yeah, and then he *giggle* waggled his eyebrows and fanned himself. He's great, I flashed a smile. XD Isn't it funny how much easier it is to flirt with someone when you no longer have a crush on them? Or when they're taken? *snort*
Oh yeah, forgot to mention- I made an 89 on my Bio final (which means I missed like 11 questions... eh... good enough) and a 100 on my English one! XD

And then... all afternoon I've been working on my macca_stills thing, did more whoring for dylan_stills, um... and yeah.

You know ... a week sure can feel like a hell of a long time... and I'm not talking about this week. For a week I didn't get to talk to Jason yesterday and I just... I dunno how I feel. *sigh* Kinda sucks. A lot. ( Sarah produced a poem! )

Tomorrow I won't be online for most of the day 'cause I have to work at the school's speech tournament from 9AM to about 5. :/ I'll miss y'all, all I have to do is hall monitor the M-building. I guess I can make small talk with the people from the other schools. I think I'll bring my DVD player and watch those NDH Dylan performances in the special features that I didn't know about. 'Cause like, on both discs it has performances but they're just clips y'know, and I was like... uh... But yeah. I digress...

Alrighty, done.

Gah I'm so happy, I don't even know what to start this entry with! Definately not school. *snort* First- the most obvious reason- apparently Jason signed on while I was out today, he's at home and well... ahhh goddamn, he'd better sign on again tonight, it's still kinda early over there. XD

Yes- I was out. I went to Barnes and Noble and bought the No Direction Home DVD and The Essential Bob Dylan. XD

( And I got a haircut!!! )

So with that weight off my back- literally- all is well... Siiiiigh. But I am a bit worried about hearing of Greg and Theresa, I really hope things are ok... Ugggh.

School. Art final was eeeeasy- oh man, our teacher- Mrs. Keith- showed up while the class was sorta misbehaving, hehe. I was so relieved to see her, she'll be returning tomorrow. NO MORE OF THAT SUB!!! XD My average in there is a 96, I was a bit worried about that one project I half-assed. She liked how my Yellow Sub turned out and wants to hang it from the ceiling. Aw... I didn't take pictures of the final product, oh well. After that Louis and I were being stupid in Gym, hehe. Um... I'm pretty much set for my English final, I just hope I finish in time tomorrow. Algebra was booorrring, but I think I've got formulas down from stuff we learned earlier this year for the final. Lunch was cool, they let me sit at the new table. *snort* And for Interp, I'm all set and pumped for that tournament we're holding. I gotta find some appropriate poetry in this book Marissa got me for the Warren tournament in a few weeks.

Hm... Op! Happy birthday, Fiona!!! ... again! I already left a comment in your LJ, hehehe. <3333

Right now, Josie and I are working on dylan_stills. Haven't made promo banners yet but... Hey y'all, join!! Tell your icon-making friends! And even if you aren't an icon-maker, join to give more votes. :) I dunno if hoping for enough people by Sunday is too much to aim for but we'll see. I also get to round up affiliates, oh boy. Bleh.

I think I'm done here... I love you all. Love love love. :) I'm gonna watch my DVD soon...

Mother is kicking me off, and I've really gotta look over a few things for my art exam tomorrow buuut- lazydynamite and I are starting a Bob Dylan icon challenge community! It's gonna be so rad. I guess I'll pimp it out tomorrow with banners and stuff. Rawr, but where did Josie go? He disappeard off of MSN earlier, rawr.

I swear it, I am going to slit my ankles if that sub annoys me anymore in art. And she will annoy me because she is always annoying. GAH. Ahh I never have to do PE again!! XD I threw away my gym clothes today. Mmm... Nothing in Bio... I think I'm less apprehensive about the English exam as I found my quotes and I basically have an intro. Ah yes, and my average in that class is a 96. XD I didn't think I'd have to study for my Algebra exam, but there are a bunch of little things I'm rusty on so I guess I'll have to look over that review... Nothing particularly particular at lunch... I'm not so worried about the History exam anymore either, um... And in interp, Miles loaned me $20 to buy a hoody. :) He's such a great guy, I'm paying him back tomorrow of course.

I miss Jason like crazy.

( Suuurvey )

Oh yes, I forgot to mention a couple days ago- but to those who commented in that compliment meme thing- I love you. I do, I do. I love love love you. Thaaank you. :D

I think I should go now.

Gah, forgot to update yesterday.

Blah, I'm sick. My room was covered in tissues [toilet paper actually] from my freakin' nose. My throat doesn't feel so bad, but I am coughing. That would suck to have to miss exams next week. Well, it would kinda rock 'cause... no exams but it'd be a hassle.

And I barely feel like updating 'cause I'm freaking out 'cause I haven't talked to Jason or Theresa since ... Saturday, Sunday? And yesterday I remembered that they mentioned that Jason was being moved into a different room- maybe that means no computer/internet so... But I miss talking to him sooo much. Sigh. I almost feel like we're drifting, which is the most frightening and depressing shit about long-distance things. Of course, it isn't his fault or mine- which is even worse. I can't think of what else would prevent him from being online- unless he had some insane relapse and is... is dead. *snort* But... nah... Sigh. It's just so depressing, man. :( I have been online sooo much and it's driving my mom and sister insane and... Of course, there's the suspicious Greg issue to worry about, too. It's all making me nervous again.

I studied a little for my exams today, but of course I gotta study more. I'm only really irked about English 'cause I haven't found quotes to use in that essay, and maybe just a little irked about World History just 'cause it's AP.

Eh, this was kind of a shitty update. But I gotta go 'cause finally, I get some PS2 time to myself, hehe.

I'm really bored and I wanna talk to my boy- it's been like, a week and it's taking it's toll. :(

I felt really really shitty last night 'cause I think I'm coming down with a cold. But I'm too chicken to go to the doctor 'cause I'm paranoid they'll find out that ... *cough* yeah. I'm not just coughing 'cause I'm sick, if you know what I mean.

Let's see... I really would like to strangle the substitute we've been having in art. She's weird and annoying. And everyone dislikes our actual teacher because, well, she's a teacher but I think she's alright and I hope she doesn't like, die. 0_o; In PE we just sat against the wall listening to our mp3 players, Whtney, Louis and others and I. I slept in Biology 'cause I had finished my review early. I'm just a little stressed about English because I can't find quotes to use in my exam essay thing... I guess I'll look this weekend. I think I rushed through the Algebra test, it wasn't that bad but some of it was tedious and I hope I didn't totally bomb it. *snort* At lunch, Chad came over and asked if we'd like to start sitting at a new table. I was studying with Faith so Emilee was the only one who went over there. I go over there to join and it turns out they've started a club. *snicker* Constitution and everything- gee, I hope I can sit with them! :P Ohh man, in World History, I got a 92 on my test!!! I got a 92 on my last couple of tests too, I think- so instead of it always being an 88- now it's 92. My average is also a 92- A, YES! XD The quiz wasn't so bad, I was vague on like two of them... I wonder if Becker was especially OCD and has the grades posted online tonight... Nothing really happened in Interp except for Joe wanting to get a hug from Tremain; he kept saying, "Smith! Tremain doesn't wanna be my friend anymore!" and Tremain ran around the room hugging everyone else. And then at the end of class Tony, Philip, and Carlton decided to toss me around, literally. :P

And... after school, Marissa missed her bus so she rode home with me again. It's interesting, I think she did it on purpose- when she calls her mom to pick her up, she always prolongs the time and stuff. I don't care, really, I guess. It's gotten to the point where I can't remember how extremely flawed she acts and how ridiculous she treated me in 8th grade, but it isn't like I've "forgiven" her or some shit, but I'm detatched. Like I am with everyone lately... And you know, I go on about how it's no big deal and I drift from everyone eventually but... It doesn't feel all that great at first. Like seriously, I feel I'm drifting from some pretty close people/people that might actually matter- and online, too. Sigh. Oh well, whatever. In time there shall be a new crowd I guess.

I am such a tease. I think I'm gonna have the Amy over tomorrow and try and see Brokeback Mountain, but if not then... Concert for Bangladesh! And other things... if I'm in the mood... ;) *snicker*

OH. I almost forgot. If you love me you must must MUST do this, it's fun.

One little compliment can make you feel amazing.

So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind how great you are.

Comments are going to be screened so none of you will know if I'm uber-popular who gets over 100 comments on this or a total loser who doesn't get any.

DO IT. Or my self-esteem will drop. *scoff*

I should get these memes out of the way 'cause they've been taking up RAM or something being in an unsaved and minimized Notepad window for days. ( Read more... )

Ah man, last night I didn't get to bed till like midnight. Tonight eleven is the latest, like it should be. Preferably 10.

I finally turned in my YS sculpture in art. Pheeeew. We were handed our semester exam reviews and it looks a little daunting. Just a little. In PE we had that annoying sub Mr. Torrez. Seriously, everyone loves him but... me, eh, whatever. *eyeroll* He's alright. More review stuff in Biology... I think I did well on my short essay thing in English. I hate those little things, rawr. Made a 91 on an Algebra test. XD At lunch, we played travel Scrabble!! XD I loooove Scrabble, I have been playing since I was like 6 so I'm gewd. Miles and Chad complained about it though, ugh. I really should start on my World History AP semester exam review... tomorrow. There's a test tomorrow and then a quiz Friday- they shouldn't be all that bad. And in Oral Interp, Andrew has dropped out and so I'm hoping Miles can be my duet partner, but I dunno.

I made a couple of Dylan avatars today. XD Went to Target with the family- they had none of the music/DVDs I wanted. Not one. Rrrgh. Grrr, and no LOST today, someone lied to me.

It came to me today as I was sitting on the ground against the wall by myself this morning before school about the males in my life: the important ones' names either start with D, or J. D is usually the unreachables- David, Daniel (only physically I guess), Dhani, Dominic. *giggle* And J were the ones that I wasn't always into, or I was unsure: Jeff, Jake... maybe there was another... Eh. But ironically... now I've got Jason. :P But not physically of course so that's interesting... *snort*

Speaking of whom, [alright, this paragraph's gonna get mushy] I was more conscious of the many couples at school today, probably staring, haha. It gets heavy sometimes, geez... I was daydreamy all day. So I was a little, you know, discontent after school. But then I was flipping through the images on my computer and came across Jason's pictures... Long-distance things are interesting. I see images, or I hear his voice and think... that's mine. That- he is, gosh to be cliche, my other half. And I'm his and... *cough* AHEM. Anyway, after feelings like that I felt better. :)

Alrighty, I should make sure my DVD player's OK 'cause I accidentally kicked it into my dresser 'cause it was on the ground... Toodles. :)

If I annoy anyone with excessive Bobsessing, it's lazydynamite's fault for turning into a Dylan junkie with me. :P You whore!!!

My head hurts like a bitch either because of lack of sleep or Tom, grr. But I'm staying awake 'cause I found some awesome videos. One is of John Lennon and Bob Dylan in this car and Bob is sooo obviously on something. :P And then the other is the video for "Subterranean Homesick Blues" which is such a great song. The video rocks my ass off. And then a third video is loading of the Travelling Wilburys' "Handle With Care." XD

Today wasn't so bad, kinda easy. We're gonna have a substitute in art for a while 'cause my teacher's got medical issues, eep. Tonight I had to finish both of my projects (Yellow Sub sculpture which... isn't THAT great) and that other stupid one I had boycotted till now. Um... PE we did nothing; Whtney was telling me about how she found that one of her childhood friends had committed suicide. :( It made me very sad. I mean, I used to just be like, "omg, I'm so sorry" when people lost people but you know, now that I know what it feels like I'm gonna cry about everything. 0__o; In Biology we're doing semester exam reviews... In English I rocked my benchmark's ass off. *snort* Good grades, good grades. Oh crap, I was supposed to look over Antigone for the essay-like things we're doing tomorrow ... Eh. I almost fell asleep in Algebra... No games today at lunch, but tomorrow I'm bringing Scrabble. XD There is a test in World History on Thursday, it shouldn't be all that bad, study tomorrow... And nothing really in Interp except that times may get stressful 'cause our school's holding it's tournament which is just next weekend and it's a bitch trying to find judges...

Oh goodness, LOST starts up again tomorrow girls!! XD Supposedly Eko's episode. He's so cool. :)

Um... so I almost threw a fit 'cause mother took Joseph to get his haircut but couldn't take me. :( I'm gonna get it cut short 'n smexy. Layers, face frame, as always. To my shoulders as always. And yeah... And if I don't get to go to Barnes and Noble soon I might throw a fit 'cause I'm in a fit-throwing mood lately.

Um... maybe that's it... Yeah I am tiiiired. And I wanted to talk to Jason tonight but he didn't sign on. :'( Ah, well. I love yoo.

I don't wanna go to school, I don't wanna, I DON'T WANNA.

Actually... it's no big deal.

Today I vowed I would clean up 'cause I really haven't done so all break- but it turns out all I had to really clean was the bathroom. My room's decent right now so yeah. I think mother wanted me to vacuum but... whatever. I've been at the computer all day, surprise surprise, and dealing with being so totally loopy because of Tom. Like, so up and down and pitiful it was blaaah. I think I'm ok right now, hehe.

I was all weird last night too and ended up writing a mushy poem (gasp) about Jason. I dunno if I'll share it here but I'll put it on my site just so it'll look like there's more content.

Todaaay Theresa bought Jason a mic for his computer!! I didn't talk to Jason, he fell asleep, but I did talk a lot to Theresa. Oh man, it was hilarious and weird because Jason started making weird noises in his sleep and Theresa was giggling and put the mic up to him for a bit... and then he was... moaning and then, um, saying my name and then Theresa said she thought there was something going on under his sheets. It was hilarious- and flattering. :P But then... all the while we were talking, Greg was in the hospital cafeteria feeding the twins and that and he was taking a long time. Soon enough Theresa told me that often he'd find people [mostly like... females who gushed over the babies] and sit and talk to for a while. Theresa never really goes with him 'cause she doesn't wanna leave Jason alone. So then eventually I told her to go track him down and sure enough, she finds him sitting with some woman and he just says, "hey, things are fine, I'll be back in a bit" kinda... blowing her off. It's just... it's saddening because he is/was a really, really great guy. And then... yeah, it is very suspicious. It's kinda scary.

This year is totally already resembling the last. Sigh. But Theresa'll be ok, she's always handled herself... Ah- she's been going to work and that, says things are fine. Hehe, she brought up our Dominic days and I started to miss the forum- remember, girls? I miss the good Dom fansites too, gr. I blame them for my fanDOM slightly slipping.

Um... I spammed dhani_harrison, watched Concert for Bangladesh again... I really gotta go to Barnes and Noble soon to look and purchase the following: Queer as Folk season II, the Beatles' First US Visit, that Dylan documentary No Direction Home, and the Essential Bob Dylan. I have about $75 which'll get me... maybe two of those thingies. We'll see.

I need a haircut. It's all gotta come off.

I think I'm finished...

I'm bored, and I feel so rambly. XD

So last night I stayed up talking to people from like, three different time zones and it was New Year repeatedly. XD That was a trip. And today I did nothing. Ah tomorrow's the last day of break, I'm gonna miss hanging out online all day...

Last night I actually wrote a little thing which I'll only share with one person... hehehe.

Um... I feel like spamming you with the Dhani caps fourthtimeround and I did from that one clip on the CfB website. :) ( Read more... )

'06 is good so far I guess. I wanna talk ter my Jason, though. I remembered a bit from our conversation the other day; there was loud Shakira music playing and for a while he sang along to it it was adorable/hot- the greatest thing ever. XD I love him so much... And I was gonna make a seperate rant just about that but now I dunno if I'm up to it, hehe. But I am up to sharing some yummy images of himself that he gave me. ( Read more... )

I'm bored, yet restless and I can't concentrate on an actual good post. Oh well. Have a nice day!

Today I made several awesome sigs for teh Golf forums. APPLESCRUFFS REPRESENT! :P *dork*

But that's relatively not important because JASON CALLED ME TODAY. Ohh god... *giggle* Theresa let him use the last minutes on her phone. Oh man... he sounds like a girl! *dies* I love it though. My princess... We talked for a good while about several things, it was so grand. Then the cellphone died, rawr. And then I was so lovestricken, so... high, oh man, anyone who was talking to me then I'm sure y'all were a little irked. Gosh... so great. I could open the window and scream my love, oh man. I'm so hopeless... And his hair's growing back and all and the doctor's said it isn't even supposed to be yet, hehe, so everything's good. Soon I feel things shall return to "normal." Which, I admit, is a little daunting 'cause once again, change, but... bah, things'll be perfect. :D

I wanna see Brokeback. *growl*

I hope my Aussies/Kiwis are enjoying their New Year. XD

Oh something I stole from somewhere:
I believe you guys are to name a fandom of mine and I shall answer these questions:

1. The first character I first fell in love with
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
3. The character everyone else loves that I don't
4. The character I love that everyone else hates
5. The character I used to love but don't any longer
6. The character I would shag anytime
7. The character I'd want to be like
8. The character I'd slap
9. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise

Do it- comment!

I think that's it... Someone peer pressure me into finishing my art stuff tomorrow.

Today I just sort of sat. Played the PS2. I rewatched a bit of QaF season 1. [I really need to go to Barnes and Noble... and after picking up season 2, I need to get the Beatles' First US Visit DVD thing] I... straightened up my room just a little bit. Watched Concert for George again and fangirled over Dhani (sorry you had to witness that, captbrilliant :P) and then watched this clip on the Concert for Bangladesh website that had Dhani in it. *dies* Thanks again, fourthtimeround, maaaan..... what a man. *scoff*

I'm over at the Golf forums and adding more to my Beatles image collection 'cause it's about time I did that. I usually avoid image threads, I'm not quite sure why.

I got a survey I stole from my pearlescentshoe- ( Read more... )

I'm getting bored... *whimper* Gotta clean up my room. I want my Jason tonight. *whine* I'm sure he's fine.

Ugh, I slept in till 10 this morning which is a big deal for me 'cause I always wake up early and I hate waking up that "late." My mother and little brother were up sorta late cleaning the playroom so that kept me up. OH MY GOSH, I had some weird dreams last night. The first one was short- but it involved Dhani! But... it was in LJ form. That is SO sad. It was sweet though... I don't remember much at all. And gosh... what else did I dream. Oh. I had a dream- get this- a dream that I was calling up captbrilliant to tell her that I had a dream with her in it. HEHE! And then... there were other strange thoughts.

I really really wanna go see Brokeback Mountain and The Producers. *stomps foot*

That's it.

It is SO true: things are always the worst before they get better. I had a horrible, horrible night last night but then before I drove myself crazy, Jason signed on. It was really nice. :D Of course if I say this bit of good news, I'll have another bad bit to report next time, but- he's eating solid food again. :P And a teeny bit of his hair is returning. :D

So I'm stable for the time being.

Anyways. Oi, I had to wake up at 6 this morning 'cause I had a dentist appointment. Oh my goodness, I wanted to bite this lady's fingers off. I have above average dental hygiene, but apparently not the greatest 'cause there she was scraping away mercilessly with that tool that they use, my gums hurt sooo much. And the caused them to bleed a lot because she then scraping away at my gums with a gauze thing afterwards. Urrgh. But yeah, no cavities and that. XD Um... Then mother and I went shopping; got myself a much-needed purse. Good size- I have never had a lasting purse. Hehe. Then we went to Costco- where I bought Concert for Bangladesh!! I just got done watching everything on the DVDs, it's really really good. The first actual benefit concert- and probably the best. Because... a lot of those concerts are blah. But it rocks. I also picked up a bigger mp3 player. XD [Am I the only human on the planet who doesn't want an iPod? *hide*] So yeah, I don't have much money left... I really really gotta find QaF season 2...

And so yeah, that was my day. Played some video games, too... hmmm. Aaand now I'm working on a hot Dhani icon.

I <3 yoo.

Today was alright. Played video games. Listened to Shakira. Received mp3s from lazydynamite [you rock!]. Missed we-all-know-who- goddamnit. It's heavy. But I won't drop it all on everyone here this time.

Sigh.

Ahh, Xmas. XD Lessee, what did I get:

- Shakira's Oral Fixation Volume II
- YS Soundtrack
- A portable DVD player, eee!
- Amplitude and We Love Katamari for the PS2
- "A Long and Winding Road"- this 5-DVD Beatles documentary
- Money, clothes, bath stuff, etc.

Is that it? I can't think. But I am content. :D

Urrgh, but I wanna talk to my Jason!! You know, I check my horoscope for a laugh all the time- and today in Star, it said that a long-distance person would surprise me late today. 0__o; He'd better sign on...

And I am stuffed. Ate this sextacular Vietnamese sandwich and some cupcakes... and some almond Kisses and mint chocolate Hersheys. So yeah, all day the siblings and I have eaten chocolate and played PS2 games. XD

One more week of break; I suppose this one should be the productive one. I'm gonna clean out my room again, I really really would like to write. I gotta complete two art projects, rawr. But I'm not that stressed about school starting again I guess. Not yet. *shrug*

You know who's hot? That kid on The Outsiders and the Karate Kid- Ralph... M-something, I think. Mmmm. Worth a couple of icons in my collection at least, not another full-blown obsession. Besides, he doesn't make a very attractive adult- to me at least. I like 'em scrawny ... Aaanyways.

Hope everyone had a gewd day today!

Ahh, Chrismtas eve- always goes by way too slowly. For once this month I have grown hyped up about presents. XD Still been a little down about Jason's absense online- BUT, a friend of Theresa's (who's name is also... Theresa...) told me that he signed onto AIM earlier today so he's good.

Today... Er, last night rather, after the aunts and my siblings got home from Papasitos, we opened the million gifts that our aunts alone got us because one of them had to leave that night and wanted to see what we thought. I got... the Yellow Submarine Soundtrack (completely my [UK] Beatles album collection XD), some scarves, some orgasmic bath stuff, some candy... And then my mom got home and brought me this hot jacket she found and bought. I'll gotta post images. Images of that jacket, and of that one black skirt I've got... hmmm... I'm such a girl, I love clothes. XD Oh yeah, and today my uncle and little cousin visited from Austin to give us our gifts from them. :)

But man, I'm just freaking waiting for the 24-hour marathon of A Christmas Story. Seriously, Christmas is not Christmas without that movie.

Man, I didn't bother making holiday icons 'cause I've been so Scrooge-y. For the moment, I'm feeling just peachy.

Aaand tonight we're having some Asian take-out from this fancy place; didn't feel like dealing with the crowd or making reservations or anything like that. I think that's it.

I know it is appropriate to say "Happy Holidays" this time around 'cause Christmas and Hanukkah start on the same day this year- so Happy Holidays, f-list! I love you.

War is over! If you want it. XD *dork*

Today wasn't as bad as it could have been; went Xmas shopping with my siblings and my second cousin for stuff for my parents and brother. It's the first year my siblings and I have had money to buy them stuff, which was cool. Good feelings associated.

Of course, I've been thinking about Jason, though. Just about how much we love each other and that. But every once in a while there's a tightness in my chest and that- but maybe I'm just sleepy. It's really difficult for me to be positive or hopeful since Dan died this summer, but I'm not as pessimistic as I could be- which is part of the reason I seriously feel insane 'cause I dunno how to feel. But I'm getting there.

Hmm... what else.

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Hehe, I started thinking of ideas for Dark Horse Pony [should I write it like that in the banner? ;)], my Dhani fhansite. It's gonna involve my fun scanned handwriting and some doodles, as well as images of the Dhan-man all blended. And... it's gonna be dark, of course, black and blue and probably purple. I have a layout planned, too, it's gonna be hot. XD

Except for the nervous habit of wringing my hands and an uncharacteristically/subconsciously saddened face and quietness, I'm mostly good. I really appreciate the comments. *hugs f-list*